I began writing this while sitting out in public, but about three sentences in, began crying and shaking uncontrollably. I wanted to stop and just delete all of it, it hurts too much thinking about it and reliving it and I feel my heart shattering piece by piece once again the more I write. But… Continue reading Million Reasons
This won't be like the usual posts because I don't feel alive right now. I feel empty. I feel vacant. I feel alone. There is a numbness like I've never felt before. There's a void. Panic attacks are the closest I am to feeling anything, they mostly feel like the emptiness trying to come out… Continue reading Empty.
When do you know it is safe to let your guard down and just be happy? I think I've lost all possibility of shielding myself from pain. I've let you in with no restrictions. I've allowed myself to embrace everything about you. I've gone past the point of turning back. I just want to enjoy… Continue reading Die Trying
Why don't we ever let others know exactly how we feel? I just want you to be honest with me. I just want you to tell me what you want. I just want you to tell me what you expect from us. Maybe then I can decide what I want. Just give it to me straight.… Continue reading Give It To Me Straight
When should a person move on? It's been two days. No, correction, realistically, it's been over a month. Over a month since I actually lost your interest. Of course, it's been two days since you proved to me that regardless of the few interactions and nights we've had recently, I don't have it anymore. I… Continue reading Someone Like You
Does timing really affect a relationship? It's hard to grasp the fact that timing was the reason everything ended before it even started. I just don't understand how you didn't want to at least try it out. How does right timing kill all the chemistry and feelings we had? You weren't ready for a relationship.… Continue reading Stay